halloweenbirthday.

This post will mainly be pictures, showing my really awesome experiences from last weekend (Halloween + My Birthday Weekend).

Makeup Party with the girlfriends on Halloween:

Pumpkin carving for the first time in my life on Halloween:

Peking Duck Restaurant with my sister and girlfriends on the Sunday before my birthday:

THE DUCK

THE DUCK ON “CHINESE TORTILLAS”

MUSHU… CHICKEN OR PORK?

CURRY NOODLESTHE SISTER AND I (most normal picture of us that day)

GIRLFRIENDS

And finally, being woken up really early in the morning on Sunday to find Paul standing outside my window all dressed up, ready to serenade me with his ukulele and an original piece (that he wrote specifically for me!)… as a birthday gift! Gosh, I have such awesome friends. Listen to the talent of this dude.

bloop.

I would just like to share a couple of really touching videos that I have seen lately. One is about love and the other is about art.

So, about this first video… LeLove. I check that blog several times a day. I am obsessed with it because I am obsessed with love. For those who are interested, it’s actually one of the quick links I have on the side. Anyway, I saw this upcoming video on LeLove a few days ago while I was alone in my room (because my roommate had left for class already). I was watching it bright and early in the morning. In the beginning, it was hard to get past the cheesy acting. I was just sort of like “eh” as I was watching. It was the end that was the real kicker. As soon as the last part came up, I was bawling. Tears were flowing down my face and I couldn’t catch my breath… that’s how hard I was crying. It was very touching, in my opinion. How beautiful true love is…

Next is a video that my aunt sent me on Facebook. There’s just so much talent, story, emotion, life in here. It’s too amazing for words. Just watch.

I have been loving life lately. Have you?

colors.

Hello Happy Saturday.

The weather is absolutely beautiful today. I want to just sit on the grass and draw all day… but I have to do work. Sitting by my window while doing my homework is, I guess, the next best thing. I’m not being productive at all though.

Last night, as people were having fun getting drunk, I was in my room drawing. It’s funny… I realized that most of my best artworks were created on nights like last night, when everyone seemed to be so excited to be out getting wasted. My art brings me comfort. People don’t understand me when I tell them I have FUN drawing. I have FUN staying in on Friday and Saturday nights if it means I get to spend time on my art. It’s the same FUN that they experience going out and drinking. I’m weird, I guess… because people just think I’m lying when I say this. And they think I’m lame and boring . And I probably am. I’m just a home body. I enjoy the simple stuff. I’d rather stay in and talk and watch movies and play board games and draw and cook and eat than go out and party and drink and dance. Sometimes I wonder, is there anyone else out there who’s like me? Why does it seem like I’m not normal? Gosh, I don’t know, people just give me so much crap about who I am and the way that I am. I don’t feel insecure or anything because I know the person that I am and I won’t change just because I’m different from most people. I just sometimes wish I can be happy with another person who shares the same interests as me.

Hmm… this is turning out into a venting post even though I didn’t really intend it to be one. I think a lot of things just happened this week that pretty much had society pointing its finger at me, mockingly saying, “WHY ARE YOU SO DIFFERENT FROM EVERYONE ELSE? WHAT’S WRONG WITH YOU?” And obviously, it’s followed by the pressure to “CHANGE CHANGE CHANGE! AND BE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE! LIFE WOULD BE EASIER TO LIVE, LIFE WOULD BE MORE FUN!” But hey, I just slam the door in society’s face and tell it to move on. If the way that I am means I’ll be alone and seen as weird for the rest of my life, then so be it. I can’t sacrifice my beliefs, my religion, my values, my identity for the sake of fitting in.

College is very liberal. Stanford prides itself in being tolerant of everything… but the more I think about it, it’s tolerant of liberal life but not of conservative life. Sara and I were flyering around the dorms for Stanford Students For Life, putting up signs that were anti-abortion. It was pretty scary because we did receive some… words… some comments. I was scared. But even with my heart sinking, I still got the courage to put up the flyers everywhere, and I put up a bunch on my door. Yes, I’m proud that I’m against abortion even though 90% of you (talking to Stanford students here) are probably against it.

Anyway, back to the point that I was making: I LOVE ART. This was the drawing that I worked on last night. It’s not such a big masterpiece but creating this last night allowed me to color all my emotions onto a blank piece of paper.

I hate having dreams that bring back to memory people and feelings that I’m trying to forget.